In God we trust

In God we trust

If you are reading this, it means that I thank you for taking out time and reading it, I'm not particularly good with words but i hope you'd get the essence of what I'm trying to put across.

There are many possibilities in the universe but the one on which I will be focusing on is the possibility of existence of god and some experiences from my own memory lane, There are certain times in one's life that the person might feel  that an entity such as god exists and he's there protecting us all and looking after us, but at the same time a paradox exists, because when there are hardships that occur in one's life the person is being told that these are all tests that god has for us, in a nutshell this confuses an average person that when there's an entity which is known to give unconditional love but at the same time is testing his subjects and hence putting a condition on the love that he's so known for.

If I compare myself with the person I was an year back, I realize that I have surely come a long way since then and avidly trying to reach my potential, but things we not so couple of years back when I was dealing with my emotional baggage and the trauma of rejection. the worst kind of feeling is Panic, which drives you insane and clouds your judgment. It was my faith in an entity like god that helped me through the distress and the agony. I believed in God but I did not pray, because these are two very different things, having faith and surrendering the results of your actions to him is very different from not performing actions and praying. I suffered from a chronic lack of self esteem and self depreciating attitude which had resulted in poor communication skills, lack of confidence and poor performance at work, but even then in that vicious circle of negativity, there was always hope and that hope I got from the faith that I so had in god.

God as an entity IF it exists acts in mysterious ways, as the quote from batman "why do we fall, so that we can learn to pick ourselves up" would be apt, all these tests and hardships that one faces only helps us to be a better version of ourself. In my case going through that phase in my life made me realize the value of faith and friendship that helped me through, The result was that the status quo is definitely better and I evolved as a person which has tremendously helped me in all walks of life from professional to personal.Recently I realized that really like talking to people, random people and knowing them and their story of life and certainly became more patient and free from panic and achieving greater things in life, reaching there one step at a time.

To conclude I'd say its not important that whether or not god exists but what is important is that slight faith which guides you through becomes your inspiration and the ladder to success.

This is the unrecruited soldier signing off...

Making peace with the past and enjoying the present

How important is it to make peace with the past?

To come up with an effective answer for this question it took me a considerable amount of time.
But nonetheless  I have an effective answer to this question and learned it from multiple events in my life.

Let me tell you a story its about a person who wanted to be a part of the armed forces and serve his country. Ever since he was a child of 7 years old when people asked him what would he like to become when he grows up and the answer which the child gave often left person perplexed as he'd always answer that he wanted to be a soldier in the Indian Army,they were often surprised by seeing the spirit of patriotism and his strong will to join the defense forces. He would never miss a single chance to play an army man in any of the functions in which took place in his school. When he reached the minimum required age to apply for the army, he applied for the National Defense Academy along with his best friend, but his friend was initially reluctant in giving the exam but in the end he gave the exam and qualified it and all the stages, but as the fate would have it that child never received the admit card and therefore couldn't even sit for the exam.

That was the incident which changed my life forever and I had no other option other than to seek any other career option and engineering and medical were completely out of picture.

One of the happiest moment in my life was when I cleared my CLAT exam and joined a reputed law university. But time and again there was a thought that used to haunt me quite frequently that was "Why couldn't I join the army? Am I doing justice to the dream I had as a child"
and then the never ending chain of thoughts particularly the ones which reminded me that If I'd have qualified that exam life would have been so different from what it is right now. But after a year in the law school I developed a keen interest in the field of law and I finally decided to let go of all those negative thoughts and the wishful-thinking of the child hood and the dream of becoming an army officer when I realized that I'd be able to serve my country better as a lawyer than as a army officer,
But I promised to myself that I would always live my life with the same discipline, honor,valor and patriotism of a soldier.I finally made peace with my past and only then i was able to witness the silver-lining of the present moment and the hope and faith in an excellent future, that every day will be better than the previous one.

In the end I finally realized:

“I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I needed to be"

JAI HIND