painful night

Its another painful night

I am stuck and don't know what to do

It is just really painful is all

I am doing everything to guard myself

It is tearing me apart within

I am incapable and am I incorrigible?

I can cry my eyes out and then

What's the use of it, and how long?

Help me make sense of why this happens

I am no stranger to this pain

Oasis that I didn't imagine I can look for 

As it is accepting me while showing who I am

 A chosen relationship that I choose every second

smitten

Smitten

Not a new feeling in memory 

But a few castles on the clouds

Have been over my head in a while

Can walk now and then an extra mile 

Finding out my signature of fall yet again

Just being a bit careful this time, and again 

The pleasure is worth knocking the door for

Opening my door, hoping me, she's opening for

heart jumps

Heart jumps around in that tiny cage made of walls full of love 

The ravishing looks at her, with all my presence in that glance

Bringing me down, falling for her time and again, to my knees

Had me wait so long to find each other, like universe starts here

Why is she so charming, my eyes are wondering, lips yearning

Finding each other, those eyes full of glances, mesmerizing kisses

eachother a lot

We hurt each other a lot

A lot like sunlight directing the canopy 

We despise each other a lot 

A lot what we can't handle, our loathsomeness

We guard each other a lot

A lot from the past and the deep seated bias

We don't face each other a lot

A lot of that coming from the place of scarcity 

the newness that's anciently old

The newness that's anciently old

Coming back of hopes like a wave on a full moon night

The curiousness that's evernew

Sliding each other the stories of hope and despair

The taste of eachother's finds

A sense of calm felt quenching the thirst after long time

I wanted to tell you

I wanted to tell you about the times I would miss you. There are times when I feel better about myself, I discover something about myself and feel intrigued yet cheerful and fulfilling. Those are the times I miss you, sharing with you. 

I keep thinking about your well-being. I ask a friend if they know your whereabouts and how you are doing. When the answer is no, I just hope you are doing well in your universe. 

I want you to take your time to heal and come back and talk to me. You know that you are already a part of my life in many ways and that can't be easily forgotten. 

I want to try and make sure that I know how you are doing even when I know I have zero control over things in your life. I just want to be knowing. And that's the least I can do. 

No matter how long we don't talk to each other, I cannot stop thinking about you. And I know you know that. I do not want this email to cause any more hurt than the heartbreak as is.   

with a lot of heaviness and warmth in my heart!

you

At this particular moment

You're alone 

At this particular night

You find yourself 

At this point in time 

You are there for you 

At this juncture in life

You hold yourself to you 

At this space around you 

You live and breathe by yourself

ఎంతైనా చెప్పు

ఎంతైనా చెప్పు 

నాలో ఉన్న నీవు మారవు

ఎంతైనా చెప్పు 

నాలో దాగిన ఆశ ఆగదు

ఎంతైనా చెప్పు

నాలో చేరిన వేదన తగ్గదు

ఎంతైనా చెప్పు 

నాలో వుండిన ప్రాణం పోదు 

ఎంతైనా చెప్పు 

నాలో నా ప్రపంచమే ఒప్పు

no one

No one can protect no one

No one can destroy no one

No one can love no one

No one can hate no one

No one can make no one

No one can break no one 

No one can feel no one 

No one can undo no one