Im sick again. After having some minor symptoms last week, eye infection and sore throat mainly, it hit me viciously yesterday and I feel so disappointed in a way. Its only two weeks until our holiday and I dont want time off work now. I mean financially, but also work wise its difficult. Its not the end of the world though and me stressing out about it doesnt help.

You know what else, I almost feel like I dontdeserveto go on holiday if I havent pushed through and worked all the way to the end. What is this silly feeling?

Also I hear all these people in my head, you know the ones that always want to comment how long since they were sick and that they never get sick or if they do they wouldnt let that keep them away from home, theyd just take pain pills and show up at work. You know, those people. What they and their useless, non-applicable to me opinions are doing making themselves reminded in my life when Im sick I dunno.

Its not like I dont push through, I do. But why is that such a valued quality, then? To know your limits, take care of your health when your sick shows humility. To not drag a cold to the workplace shows youre a considerate person. Surely, that should be valued qualities?

Still, I feel anxious about being sick again.

So Ive had my Invisaligns for 6 months now and I thought Id share some thoughts. Thoughts that I had before starting the treatment and how I think about it now.

Expectation: It must be much better to be able to take your trays out to eat, compared to having rails in all the time.

Reality: Its actually a bit weird to eat with the trays out as I expect it is with rails. Mainly because I have all these attachments on but also because your teeth are moving and the bite is changing. Also you dont want to have your trays out for very long so you have to plan your eating a lot more, and brush your teeth and trays afterward.

Expectation: Ill lose so much weight when not being able to have the trays out for longer than 2 hours a day which must include eating and brushing teeth/tray.

Reality: Nope, havent lost anything. Still manages to eat my calories apparently

Something else is how designed the moving process is of the teeth, in my case on of the front teeth are moving up and overlapping the other to push out the tooth that has been hidden behind. And when theyre all even theyll be pushed back as a row. Its amazing, not sure that you can move your teeth like that with rails.

Maybe, but Im speculating here, thats why the Invisalign process is so much faster. I mean I would have had to have rails for 2-3 years, but my current Invisalign treatment is expected to take about 10 months (could take longer though). And Ive passed 6 months now, so yaay!

Ive been really tired this weekend and had some not so nice symptoms of that. Have you ever experienced that? Vertigo, ringing ears, eye sight loss? I also had anger issues I guess its the body trying really hard to tell me to calm down.

But all I have to trade right now in is stuff I do for me, which is not fair or right. Like working out, I had an every other day thing going on, but I skipped running all weekend cause I need my physical energy to survive. Exercising is stress relief, but it is also tiring for the body. Its such a hard choice to make though, what it is I really need right then. Sunday I slept for like 2hrs in the middle of the day to. And went to bed super early.

Today I made a choice to go to the gym for the first time in ages and do legs and a run before going home. So I took a few days off and today I did more than usual. Hopefully that wont set me back in my tiredness. I also have hip ache but thats another story, going to a naprapath on Friday. :-)

Enough whining right Im going on a lovely holiday soon, just need to push through.

Work is really fun at the moment as Im building a prototype in Vuejs (with typescript). Theres no backend so Im having to type up a lot of mock data in the application, but thats ok. Once its in place, which it should be tomorrow I can start playing around for real with work flows and clever solutions. Tomorrow Im also doing a requirement workshop with two groups at my assignment, might be interesting.

I went for a run on my lunch break today as well, Ive been on a every other day thing for a couple of weeks now and I didnt really wanna break it, but to be honest, I think I might have needed another rest day coz my hips are kind of hurting. Im limping around at work. I did try and take it very easy and stretch a lot, but I dont know if thats a good idea coz Im over flexible

At my current assignment you always see people running during lunch breaks and in the summer you see classes outside. Theres mostly engineers where I am now, but I seem to think Ive noticed this in the developer world too. People get out and move. The old stereotypes of the immobile basement programmer living off junk food and jolt is dead, well it should be.

Physical activity and smartness is scientifically proven to be linked, so anyone interested in coming up with tricky, clever and creative solutions need to realise this.

A programmer could also look like this awesome Victoria Secrets model and be an amazing developer with ridiculous amount of Stack overflow points. Lyndsey Scott;

Were going to Capetown soon, in just a few weeks time actually. Im starting to get nervous, but also excited of course. Jon and I was there 8 years ago, lots have happened since then and this will be a totally different trip.

I look forward to the weather, the scenery, the food and some shopping I expect.

I think well get up to a lot more touristy things this time around. Last time was mostly socializing and therell be some of that as well of course.

And flying Flying. Could get interesting. 2 kids and total of 13 hours in the air and a long time traveling. Hopefully theyll sleep on the plane, Im sure they will. Hopefully I will I spoke to my doctor and he will give me bag of tranquilizers when I go there in a couple of weeks! Hope they work! I have a great of flying. Might be worth mentioning that. Its become better in recent years. But Ive already had anxiety about it so night be good to get some help.

I have never been to an IT event with so many women. Everybody says it changes the atmosphere of the room for the better. Let‘s do that to the IT business in total. #WebSummit is a good start. https://t.co/Nw6m7UFfJ6

Sandro Schwarz (@SandroDigiHu) November 8, 2018

This above is one of the reasons why I think its important to add women to the tech industry, that a good with a mix of people changes the atmosphere for the better.

Big companies know this, and they know a diverse work force = profit due to higher productivity and creativity. Plus the industry is screaming for people to employ, theres not enough men, we need to look at other groups in society to fill the demand .

Unrelated, but still funny, a manager at a company Ive been at half screamed when another manager was complaining about not finding resources to hire;

What is the problem? Its not like the earth is emptied out of people looking for employment find someone and teach them!

I love that! I believe its a big problem that some trying to recruit are blinded by their interpretation and bias of what competence is and cant look beyond stereotypes.

Anyway, lets make a list and start with these points above and then continue to list why this is important (because yes, I hear people all the time claiming is a non-issue);

I was able to go to Websummit last year, and had the same feeling as the tweeter. Its great to see so many women in this context! And I know the Websummit team are working hard on it!

The ideal would of course be, to not think about it at all. That it just felt natural. But its not really there yet

Thats my thoughts about the subject now. However, rest assure I have lots more to say about it.

But Ill finish off with another tweet considering #2 on my list;

mfw i hear the diversity is good for business lines trotted out.

what if it *werent* good for business? what if it cost your company money, with no ROI, to not be racist/sexist/homophobic/ageist/ableist/etc? would diversity and inclusion still be core values for your company? https://t.co/y1MPmb3EAM

EricaJoy (@EricaJoy) September 12, 2018

I cant believe in already on tray 18 of my Invisalign journey, and almost 6 months into it. I only have 10 more trays, but I might get a few correctional ones after that.

It looks like my dentist filed too much on my button row so Ill need to fix that after all the tests are done Feels a bit annoying to be honest but Ill wait and see, maybe its a quick fix.

Ive got really used to the trays so its no big deal anymore. I dont even think about being without them yet. But it wont be that much longer

So how about the result? Well the upper teeth are moving a lot now, its a huge difference if I compare trays. Also I had this period where there was a lot of tension and like 4 trays in a row broke! But that has passed and I think its because the teeth are more straight now. Cant wait for the next few trays to straighten it even more

I remember through the years sometimes Ive sat and pushed the teeth with my fingers, I dont know why its not like that could move them permanently. Also Ive had this habit of pushing the tooth that had been sticking in out with my tongue. It will feel very strange when its all straight when the tongue moves over the teeth after this is all done.

Im sitting on the bench at the swimming pool (indoors as theres thunder outside). Im was unprepared for my female issues when going here resulting in me not being able to swim. Laaame. I asked when I bought a coffee if they have any tampons to buy, but no.

The really sweet girl in the till offered to run down and check her bag for one so sweet! That is truly one of the greatest bonding things between women, helping each other out with these things. I said no thanks though cause it felt like too much of an effort for her to leave her spot at the café just for me to have a short swim. But very nice of her to offer!

Were just here for a short swim. I feel stressed out and want to attend my to do list so stupid. I know I wont get much done today so why stress. But I have to like actively think about not thinking like that. Grr

The lights just went out over here, hmm Strange.

Tonight Im swapping back pain for tooth ache. In changing my Invisalign tray again, tray number 8 here we go. I love the feeling of pressing a new tray on and feeling it pushing the teeth a little bit more toward their new positions.

My back was a little better after some TENS treatment. When I was talking to Jon about it I realised that it must have to do with me being home from work. I think its carrying Evelyn. I dont carry her as much as before obviously, shes getting older. But shes also getting heavier. Yesterday I carried her from my parents house home cause she was upset. Ok it probably doesnt tell you anything how far that is, its not far. But it was a challenge.. so thats probably why my lower back on the right side hurts today. Its always the same spot. Im in desperate need of strengthening my core muscles too, that might help.

Anyway, we got so much done today. Jon fixed our car breaks so we have a car again. I tore down all old wallpaper in the upstairs hallway. And Jon did some lists in the kitchen. Little by little were making progress.

I use Wunderlist for keeping my to-do lists. So Ive attacked this summer vacation agile style, doing small tasks every day. It keeps you moving forward even though it might take a while.

Good night now. Kids finally fell asleep 3 more sleeps until the UK. Yay!

Hi Im lying in bed with Evelyn, I got a really sore back. I dont know what Ive done. But it might have to do with being with the kids alone all week. And Ive also been working on removing wallpaper and painting the stairs for the 350th time.

Its super hot in Sweden as in many other places at the moment. So its hard to know what to do. But I seem to have managed to overdo it anyway. Ive got the TENS machine on so I hope that will help.

We bought a carpet for the stairs and upstairs hallway. But to be able to install it, we need to fix the walls and the stairs first. If we get that done weve finally finished with renovating the downstairs (except bathroom and laundry which is not projects were planning on anytime soon). Then we can finally do our bedroom and the kids upstairs, so excited for that!