Moving Back[May. 11th, 2009|08:53 pm]stupidofmeHey people!

I'm moving back to http://light-upthesky.blogspot.com

SEEYOUTHERE!

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my eyes.[May. 5th, 2009|08:17 pm]stupidofmeMy eyes, namely my left eye, has been swelling up the in the morning since saturday due to my sinuses. And even though the swelling does go down, the pain still persists. It really hurt a lot today and I was affected by it.

And it hurts even more now and I'm super affected by it.

Anyways, the past 2 days were fun for me.
Lots and lots of laughter in class.

Went to watch Wolverine after school yesterday with Slyboy, Sha and Dhivv.
It was nice towards the ending.

As for today, I went home with Deng.
Have not gone home with him since the start of semester.
Then met up with mr. chiam for dinner and to walk around and stuff.

Alrights, going to sleep now.
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(no subject)[May. 4th, 2009|10:36 pm]stupidofme[Current Mood |satisfied]

I am on a secret mission that only a few people know about.
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Bottle.[May. 2nd, 2009|12:06 am]stupidofmeI'm bottling everything up because don't know how to put in words how I'm feeling.
Too many things are going through my mind and I can just start to tear for no reason.
But I know that even when I don't know what's going on, God knows.

Maybe it's partially due to my tiredness and the stress that is being put on me.
School is one thing, but there are other things too.
And there are some tough decisions that I have to make, things that I have to give up.
But I know that I am not alone.

I hate crying.
I hate it I hate it I hate it.
But Iknow I have to cry to let everything out.

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beautifully imperfect.[Apr. 28th, 2009|09:50 am]stupidofme[Current Mood |loved]

I am beautifully imperfect (:I love Chayzx and ahTAN!
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W54E[Apr. 24th, 2009|03:07 pm]stupidofme[Current Mood |tired]
Alrightys! School has started..

Really super duperly blessed with an awesome class!
Though the modules are really quite tough, but with classmates like them, I really think class will be fun.
But I hope it'll stay like this. No bitching, politics, whatever kays?

Wheee.
I really feel like falling asleep now.
Shall crap with Zhu Xin to stay awake.
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First Day as A Year 2 Students and Other updates.[Apr. 20th, 2009|09:56 pm]stupidofme[Current Mood |tired]
Today was my first official day of being a Pharmaceutical Student.
I had microbiology and I think it was okay.
Have yet to get to know my classmates.

Anyways, about something that happened to me today, I was really affected by it today but I decided not to dwell in it and let it affect me and decided to let it go. And I'm still speechless towards what happened. But never mind.

Met the Senior HRPians during second break and I didn't have time to eat together with them! I so hate the new RP system that doesn't give us time to eat.

So after school, went to meet the HRPians to rant about my day then went to TRCC to celebrate SHA's birthday. Played some crazy games.

Anyways, here are 2 of the main events that happened last week.
(FOP 2009Collapse)


(Daphnes FarewellCollapse)
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Alive.[Apr. 13th, 2009|01:05 am]stupidofme[Current Mood |grateful]
Today was a great day for me.

My day started at 9am as I was serving for HopeTots/Kinders combined service today.
All in all, I was really glad when it was all over. Enjoyed serving with the people from Aunty Jane's side.
And the Tots were so cute lahs.

And so, moving on to Service time.
I think that this has been one of the most memorable Easters ever.
The production was great, and everything was just great.
Testimony was shared and Iteared.

I mean, I heard it during the rehearsals and it did have much impact on my till today.
Thanks to Uncle Kelvin and Auntie Yung for taking up so much courage to go up and share your testimony.
Everyone was talking about it and that is how much you guys have impacted their live.

The most moving part was definitely during altar call.
My whole life just started running through my mind.
And a few days ago, I came across a letter Iwrote to my mom when Iwas much younger. I think I wrote it about 7 years ago. I can't remember what I did that made her so mad and me think this way but it went something like this:

On the envelope I wrote:

PS. Hope you will be happy after you read this. I do not deserve to be loved by other people anymore.

The letter:
Dear Mommy,
I don't deserve to live with people who love me very much. All the people who love me very much are in Singapore. I don't deserve to live with them anymore. If you do not want to see my face anymore, please buy me a ticket back to America. Now you can stay here and live a happy life with kor kor, Janelle and Daddy. I hope that you will be very happy after I go.

At the time when I read the letter, I couldn't help but just cry for a few minutes
And I don't know why I was crying either.

But today, during Altar Call, that was one of the memories that flashed in mind and I really could not stop tearing. And so many others from the hurts in primary school, to secondary school, the short depression stage Iwas going through, the lonely times in Secondary one when I really had no friends and the friendships ITHOUGHT I had were all one-sided, the suicidal thoughts I have had. That was before I knew God.

I'm not gonna even get started on the things that happened after I knew God.

But one thing I know for sure, Jesus overcame all these things for me on the cross.
God's laws, God's ways are perfect, but Man is imperfect and we broke all of God's ways.

Like Pastor Jeff says:
In those stores that sell fragile stuff, they paste signs all over saying: Nice to see, nice to touch, one broken, considered bought.

To our lives, it's just the same, but we didn't the pay the price. Jesus did.

Like in the letter I wrote to my mommy, whatever I did that time made me feel so undeserving. Made me feel that the world would have been a better place without me. But my mommy forgave me.

And Jesus forgave me. We don't deserve to be forgiven and the world will definitely be a better place without us, but instead of us being sent to death, Jesus was sent to death.

Not only does Jesus Save, but Jesus pays.

Some people who are reading this may start labelling me as being holy, religious, etc. etc.
But I don't care, not one bit.

And what's my life like now?

Well, I've got such a great unit- HRP :) for always making me feel loved, for being so family, for being a great part of my life.
I've got great friends in church: Rachel, Kar, Deng- definitely people I can count on.
I'm sacrifcing my sleep on Sunday to impact the lives of kids. And because of HopeKids ministry, I don't just have kids to take care of, but I have mother and father figures in the leaders who impact my life too.

So much so much to thank God for.

Want a purposeful life? Want to be forgiven fully? Want someone to pay for all your wrongdoings?

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Stepping Stones[Apr. 5th, 2009|11:26 pm]stupidofme
A few years back, Ithink when I was in Sec 2, I was going through some problems in my life.
And I almost gave up on life, and I kept questioning God: Why me God? Why did You put so many problems in my life?
And I shared to my then shepherd and this is what she told me: Each problem in our life is just like a stepping stone. Every time we over come one problem, we are one step closer to God.

This is what Isms-ed my sheep: Treat each problem in our life like a stepping stone. Because a stepping stone helps you to cross a river, and if you don't overcome the stepping stone, you will fall into the river. But every time you manage to make it to the next stepping stone, you have grown one more step closer to God.
John 16:33
I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.

Romans 8:35-37
Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? ....No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.

So what are the stepping stones in your life today?


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If only I could turn back time[Apr. 3rd, 2009|12:06 am]stupidofme[Current Mood |good]
just deleted the post that was here.
i just needed to take a bath and to cool down.


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