The Suicide Project - Share your suicide stories

Time 2020-09-21 15:04:39

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To share your story here, just register for free, then choose "Posts > Add New" from the menu options.Make sure you hit the "Publish" button to publish your entry. If you already have an account here, login now. I have BPD. Every few weeks I get angry at my boyfriend (Without a real reason) to the point that I break up with him and I tell him really hurtful things. I’m 25 and he’s 22, he’s really understanding all the time and he has the sweetest soul I’ve ever met. He knows that I have bpd and I’ve tried to push him away many times because I’m scared to hurt him. Everytime I have a breakdown I break up with him and block him on every social media and the next morning I regret everything I said and feel really bad. Honestly I [ ] I was 11 or 12 when I started to consider that disappearing from all of it was an option.  I remember the first day I thought of it clearly.    I even made a feeble attempt that day as well.   Nothing happened from it other than being told that that was stupid .   The irony of that is it was an alcoholic parent that told me that,  The same parent who talked about killing themselves throughout my teen years.    We were expected to feel guilty about that.  It was just desire to get attention in my mind.Well since then the idea of making myself disappear [ ] big beautiful brown eyes are universal. they re so inviting no matter the circumstance Surely hypothermia can be painless if one has drunk and lying in freezing water at the coldest day of theyear Just wanted to say it to the universe.  Thanks Thanks so much for making sure I fail at everything.Nothing like being 60, in a dead-end entry-level minimum wage job because you have failed at every other job you have ever had.  Only my sister is left in my family and she hates my guts because I am completely disgusting in her eyes.  I am short, fat, ugly, and stupid.  I can t even look at myself in the mirror most days.  I am married to a man that won t be seen in public with me, but he is more than happy to have me be his [ ]i don’t want to lose connections I’ve made with people but fuck right now I just really do not want to exist.There’s a good chance no one would reach out to me were I to not be present anyway. There’s doesn’t seem to be anyone who ever asks how I’m going or what I’m up to, even at my best of times.I don’t really know why I care about anything but I do. Maybe that’s a good thing?The fact that I am able to find things in life worth living forNamely a newfound best friendI love her so [ ] in my world of thoughts im afraid for myself. Im getting closer to the notion that i would be better off gone. But the debacle that i cant solve, and the reward i desire of nothing, is the not knowing of the pleasure of it being over if there is nothing afterwards. in a way i feel cheated. well F. what a putz Today was a new day, a day full of nothing like all the other day, I can t think anything but that girl, I don t even know if for her I m still someone, she solved many of my problems but she also create a huge problem in me, which is that I liked her and still like her. The only moment I wasn t feeling empty, it was when we were talking a lot to each other, like every nights, but one fucking day I should have say something that she didn t like and after that there was nothing more than just classmate, of course today it [ ] Life is pointless, boring and miserable. I wish I had the strength to move on from my ex. Just because his parents know, I know, and everyone else knows what he s really like . yeeeeeeeeeeeeeet I continue to waste my time with him. It s been 7 months since I ve started talking to him again. Not that I even know whether I can be bothered with another relationship.WHAT S SO GOOD ABOUT HIM???? WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT I wish I could just be with him physically but that s not going to happen in this pandemic.Oh well. I ll need to start looking for work soon, as [ ] To: Sister with a flower in the headYou are really greedy huh? You have been living well, have many friends, have lovely boyfriend, have your youth life without studying, hang out friends, eating good food, top three doctor college, but still you said you are jealous of me You said its not enough and you still need 1% of my happiness. How can you be so cruel as a sister huh? You want to play music like me, you want to be loved by parents like me, like me, like me, like im living with the best live more than yours.Everyone can see even [ ] i m turning 19 really soon, my sister is 8. i m currently in my 2nd year of bachelors (living in the middle east, studying in india). my parents have been emotionally abusive and manipulative from 2015. it s too fucking hard to explain and idh the time to type it out rn. they re extremely conservative, religious and superstitious. i cannot share any details of my personal life with them as they ll use it at a later time to constantly belittle me. they openly said they don t like me as i m an atheist and haven t prayed in years. till 2017 they used to beat me up if i [ ] Looking for a slightly used pickup truck, five years old or less.  Any color ok, must run well. Danny or Cindy, 591-900-00 5.I m looking for the ability to believe that I matter and don t need to feel inferior to all others can t imagine what it must be like to speak my thoughts, feelings and desires and have them validated and considered.  Maybe in another life.  Once, 993-664-x107.Two large portable coolers for sale. Good condition, used infrequently.  Aldo, 444-301-2 29. So I m someone whose really gentle with others, maybe a little bit too much sometimes, and I m also very shy, I also went through a period of bullying, which was resolved last year thanks to a girl I loved and with whom we got along very well, one day everything broke and then got repaired and so on, the problem is that I m at fault, I wanted to get things done too much, now I m afraid to talk with anyone, so I found comfort in the alcohol but one day a friend of mine told me that she was going out with someone when she [ ] I think I ve really reached the bounds of existing now. I have nothing to look forward to. Look I know the world already sucked, but now it well and truly sucks. I m tired of complaining because I know that so many people have it worse than me right now. There s so much damage that s been caused in the world and I don t see an end in sight.A few weeks ago I was invited to a wow guild, I m sure the people there seemed friendly enough to some degree, but all in all I m sure they didn t want to hear about my misery anymore. I [ ] This empty feeling fills my stomach. The girl who tried to get with my boyfriend so that id kill myself acting like I completely made up everything I told my man and acted like I was a crazy liar. now I sit in my room, filled with emptiness. I know the truth but in the back of my mind it feels like no one will believe me when she full heartedly denies it and acts like a fake *****. sorry for the complaining. just another day to conquer I guess. something just doesn t feel right. manipulation and deceit have fucked up my mind. I see [ ] I ve decided I need to stop talking / typing / thinking / etc. It s just plain bad. I put my foot in my mouth so much that all I can taste are nasty dirty socks. Especially when I m tired and have been pulling loads of 12 s and got loaded up with modafinil to plow through it. I took too many last night and now I won t sleep today, and I ll do it all again tonight. And our lead is on medical leave, so I m in charge of running this stupid freaking electric furnace the size of a house while coordinating our team and managing production. [ ]

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